Life doesn’t change itself. You’ll have to do a lot of hard work to change it the way you want.

First thing, you are not the only person who feels this way. I am also a loser and an awfully slow learner. I can’t focus on a single thing wholeheartedly, my mind gets diverted every time I try learning new things.

Live is harsh, I made a lot of friends throughout my life, but I can’t say a single of them is a true one. I don’t have a single friend with whom I can turn or talk when I want. You know, there are a lot of things to learn about life. When I see people I know hanging out, posting pictures and stuff, it makes me really sad because that’s the kind of my life they are living. Whenever life hits hard, I start thinking “Where did I go wrong?”, is it the way I was brought up? Or if incase I was brought up differently, could I have been the perfect person that I want to be? See, it’s not only you who feels like a loser. I feel miserable most of the time.

I couldn’t even write this answer from a real account. At least you used your real name while I had to take the help of a fake account and fake name. You are better than most people at many things and that’s what you should be proud of  Think about all of the things you are better at than others and not what you couldn’t be or things that make you miserable.

“Everyone finds me irritating”, well that can be true for some people, but that’s not what you should be thinking about right now. The only thing you should be doing right now is chasing your passion and ways for you to be successful.

Thinking you are awful, that’s one of the cruelest things you could do to yourself.

My dad says this most of the time, “You should always compare yourself with yourself only. While comparing yourself with others, there may come differences. While comparing yourself with others, there can be differences in the form of physical, mental, educational, social, political, cultural, economical matter, etc.”

Everyone is built up differently. I cry almost every time when exams come by, the last time I literally cried to tears three days in a row was when I had to take my IELTS exam. I tried speaking with people on the internet, hoping I could overcome the fear and nervousness, but I couldn’t. I found people who wouldn’t even give a damn about what you are talking about, they make you feel like you are no one and are someone not worth talking to. But not all people are the same. Just discard those kinds of people and move on. In life, not everyone will like you, and that’s fine.

This happens to me almost all the time, I feel isolated and think I can do nothing in my life. I have an exam that I should be taking in a few months, I know that I need to do well on it, and it’s been two weeks since I stopped studying. This doesn’t mean I’ll never study, I’ll study when the fear of not doing well on it starts kicking. There will be times when I’ll feel will not be prepared on time, or start doubting myself, and think why people I know are better than me at everything.

This thinking kills me every time I start thinking about others. I know I shouldn’t be doing this but just knowing what you should doesn’t mean it’s easy to do so. It takes a lot of time, and give a lot of love and credit to yourself. Loving and believing yourself, this itself is really hard and very complicated. I doubt myself at every point of my life, but I still hope sometime, a day will come when I can see myself the way I want to be.

I don’t know all those technical stuff that fucks our minds, but one thing I can say for sure is “We have the capacity to be what we want.” It obviously is hard. Everything you need is consistency. You just need to change the mental patterns.

One thing I suggest you do is, search for “eft tapping” on YouTube and try it. Perhaps it can help you since it helped me too (Not to a great extent but it did.)